May I take you to Funky Town?
Why does everything have to be so complicated and annoying… Even in my casual tier life?
Wrote some hardcore stream of consciousness today after having what I’d assume was a semi nervous breakdown, my psychology book said that a college student has at least one instance of identity disassociation, I guess that was mine….
Today, I exclaimed to my life coach that I could describe anything in the world, ad infinitum, at a whim, anything, but I could not describe myself, never myself. After realizing what I had said, a forlorn air descended upon me, and I realized that I really don’t know who I am, what I want, or where I am going, it made me sad, realizing how little I care about myself, to say that I couldn’t even attempt to describe who I am. She asked what my key to happiness was, but I couldn’t respond, I panicked, tripped over my words, and fell. She asked me what my key was three times. With a solemn gasp I finally said that I could write nothing. Nothing. Today I was very much alone.
Adara Sánchez Anguiano (Spain) - 1: Esplendor, 2010 2: Untitled, 2011 3: Macedonia Digital, 2012 4: Arquímedes, 2011 5: Obs. III, 2009 Digital Arts: Drawings
NikaQ - TOP: A BOTTOM: Untitled Drawings
People use the word “forever” far too loosely. There is nothing eternal in existence, especially not on an emotional or interpersonal level. It’s just a lie to ease the pain of a consistently ephemeral reality. These last few days have expressed to me the transitory nature of life, how people you’ve devoted your life to can throw you aside with ease, like a bauble that they’ve lost interest in, or how people who never cared before begin to awkwardly resurface with kind words. I’m dissapointed and depressed with this whole situation, having to struggle to make new friends every four years, just to have them disappear. I’m sick of the impermanence, and don’t say to me that it’s unequivocally necessary to let go of the past, because those who forget the past truly have no future, or a chaotic one at best. Fuck fake friends, I’ll be your friend until you stop trying to be mine, I’m not going to go out of my way for you if you dont go out of yours for me, I’m not going to put myself out there just to be ignored or denied, it’s not fucking fair.
Friends never last
Soga Kayoko (Japanese) - #1: Kiku #2: Hitogoto #3: Yoku (Bathroom) Drawings: Pen + Ink
I should be feeling something right now, but it feels like, like everything is normal, and nothing is going to change. I just, I should be sad, but I’m not, I should be happy, but I’m not, my emotions are just gone.
I’m crushed by lies about crushes.